Thursday, 8 April 2010

He came back

A reflection for the Sunday after Easter:

Doubting Thomas no more

I needed to escape that room

the others were ripping my knitting

going over and over and over

blaming each other

recriminating constantly

So I baled out

just to get some space

to vent some of my frustration

It was over

what were we all sticking around for anyway?

I was really making some headway

working out what I was going to do next

and then they came to find me

came to rub it in more like

they said Jesus had come back

yeah right

good one

I just called their bluff

told them he'd have to come find me

I wasn't about to believe what they'd concocted between them

just to wind me up

I went back to see the others

tell them my plans for the future

say - so long

and that's when it happened

Jesus slipped into the room

How, I'll never know

but he gave me proof

embraced me with his wounded body

he came back

for me

Friday, 2 April 2010

The weight of the cross

2 Good Friday reflections

Simon of Cyrene

I guess I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time.

But now I think that maybe it was the right place at the right time.

Because that guy really needed help.

He couldn’t have made it any further.

Why they chose me to shoulder his cross, I’ll never know.

But there weren’t really many other men around.

Lots of weeping women but not many men.

And when those Roman soldiers say jump, you simply ask: how high.

Especially in those days.

The oppression was really biting.

There was some sort of crackdown.

And no one was safe, no matter how good your credentials.

So I didn’t argue.

Simply took the burden from this poor criminal clearly on his last legs.

IT was doubtful if he’d even need crucified, the mess he was in.

The funny thing is – he didn’t look like a criminal.

You can usually tell.

Especially the ones that end up crucified.

They look hard and cold and menacing.

But this guy – had the softest eyes and the saddest face.

And he wasn’t defiant like they always are at that stage.

Taunting the crowds and the soldiers with nothing to lose.

This man was courteous and concerned – he was worried about me.

And he kept telling the folks who tried to show him kindness – don’t worry about me – look after each other.

So I did my bit.

Not because of the Roman soldiers – I had no choice as far as they were concerned.

But I did my bit willingly for this man, because he awakened in me a compassion such as I’ve never known before.

I did my bit.

I carried his cross.

And I’m glad I was able to serve even so late in the day.


Mary, mother of Jesus

You mothers.

You know you’d do anything for your child.

You fathers, you wouldn’t stand by and see your boy hurt.

But I did.

I stood there.

I watched him.

I heard every last groan.

Felt every last sob.

My heart wasn’t just being broken, it was being shattered to smithereens.

As I stood there.

And watched.

I couldn’t turn away.

I had to endure every last pain and torment.

I had to suffer every blow with him.

And, though my thoughts were murderous for those who were hurting my boy.

I stood there.

And watched.

I couldn’t do a thing.

I was immobilised by grief.

And by something unimaginably stronger.

The knowledge that this was God’s will for my boy.

I couldn’t understand it.

Couldn’t see what on earth this would achieve.

Couldn’t even believe that God could possibly turn this around.

But I still had to stand there.

And watch.

Knowing that I was again doing the will of God.

So, just as I said yes to God’s messenger about carrying this child.

So I said yes to standing by and waiting with him as he died.

And let me tell you.

The pain of disgrace at bearing a child out of wedlock

was nothing compared with the pain of watching that child abused

and tortured and strung up on a cross

to die an agonising death.

For with every pain filled breath he took, a part of me was cut out,

a part of me died too.

I obeyed God once and experienced the joy of motherhood.

I obeyed God as I stood before the cross

but experienced only hurt and death.

My God, why have you forsaken me?

Tuesday, 30 March 2010

Holy Week reflections

Have already posted reflections for Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday of Holy Week.
On Friday, we will consider some perspectives of folk who met Jesus on the way to the cross.
I love the opportunity for creativity in worship throughout the week.

Saturday, 20 March 2010

A new way?

An offering for the 5th Sunday in Lent:

Readings: Isaiah 43 v 16-21

John 12 v 1-8


The gospel we read this morning – the story of Mary anointing Jesus at Bethany is my most favourite story in the whole of Scripture.

It is such an intimate portrayal of an extravagant display of love.

Extravagance isn’t something that often features in our Lenten discipline, when we tend to be a bit more austere, a bit more reserved in our observance.

But this story bursts into our lectionary just before we embark on the passion narratives and brings a dazzling display – perhaps to distract us from the awfulness to come in the events leading up to Jesus death – or perhaps to signal the impact of what is about to unfold.

However else you look at this story, it is intimate, maybe even a bit erotic. And no matter how that might make us frozen Presbyterians squirm, there’s no getting away from the image of a young, single woman, encountering our Lord with passion.

It’s a story with a bit of spice in it – and not just from the alabaster jar!

For quite a while, I was distracted by the various accounts of this story in different gospels.

I’d spend ages reading up on different interpretations and comparisons – and generally just ruining a beautiful story by becoming caught up in lots of peripherals.

And then, I decided simply to let the story be.

To just enjoy it for its beauty and passion, and be thankful that it is part of our gospel.

And, as a bonus, we often encounter the story again during Holy Week as we follow Jesus’ journey to the cross.

Whatever else this story is, just one of the reasons it is included in our lectionary this morning, at this point in our Lenten journey, is that it signals a turning point.

It signals a time when we see Jesus actively turning from his beach mission, if you like, his work alongside Lake Galilee, to his embarking on his journey to Jerusalem.

And that lends a whole other dimension to this little tableau.

That’s why it doesn’t matter how much the ointment cost or how counter cultural Mary’s intimate display was.

Because already things are turned around.

And Jesus is on his way to procure our salvation by making his way to the cross.

All of his ministry Jesus has proclaimed that this is the way it must be.

But who gets it?

Mary of Bethany.

A real new testament prophet.

A woman who, when so many of Jesus friends wanted to bury their heads in the sand and not face what Jesus had been telling them about, a woman who really gets it and is not afraid to throw convention and cultural constraints out of the window and anoint her Lord for burial, show her love for all the world to see and remember.

The sacrifice Jesus is about to make is incredibly extravagant – and so Mary’s response is one of extravagance.

That’s why it was so uncomfortable for those who witnessed her display of love.

She held nothing back.

She did not count the cost.

She simply gave her love.

And showed, as prophets do, how things would be.

Mary’s love has not made her blind as love sometimes does.

Mary’s love for Jesus has allowed her to see clearly and to understand all that Jesus has been teaching his friends. Mary’s love has revealed to her that this is a man with a mission. A mission that will end on a cross. So, in this opportunity she has been given, without thought for her own reputation or her own future, she lavishes her love on Jesus and does all that she humanly can to ease his passage.

When is the last time that we allowed ourselves to give with such extravagance, with such abandonment? With no thought of return but simply out of love?

Mary, the prophet of Bethany models for us today a new way. A new way of being, a new way of giving.

A new way of living as prophets.

Our other reading today came from one of the more traditional prophets – the prophet Isaiah.

But, again, there’s something different about Isaiah’s prophecy – it’s not a word of condemnation as the old style prophets often brought – the passage we read from Isaiah contains a beautiful message of comfort and encouragement.

Let’s read it again:

Thus says the Lord, who makes a way in the sea,
 a path in the mighty waters, 
who brings out chariot and horse,
 army and warrior;
 they lie down, they cannot rise,
 they are extinguished, quenched like a wick: 
Do not remember the former things,
 or consider the things of old. 
I am about to do a new thing;
 now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? 
I will make a way in the wilderness
 and rivers in the desert. 
The wild animals will honour me,
 the jackals and the ostriches; 
for I give water in the wilderness, rivers in the desert,
 to give drink to my chosen people, the people whom I formed for myself
 so that they might declare my praise.

As the prophet reminds a people in exile, a people who have all but given up hope – our God is a God who constantly finds new ways forward for people.

The challenge is – will people be willing to embark on those new ways?

Are we willing to put our hope in God and allow ourselves to be led along unfamiliar paths.

Are we willing to discover and experience God’s new thing?

These words of the prophet were offered to God’s people who could see no way forward. They had been captured and banished from the land and the life they knew. For them, there was no way back.

But that is exactly what the prophet was able to pick up on.

When there is no way back. When we cannot see our way through all the obstacles that lie in our path.

That is when God comes through – God who can find a way, not by resurrecting the things of the past – but by showing us a new way.

I am about to do a new thing;
 now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?

What about us?

Do we now expect so little from our faith, from our fellowship, from our God that we’ve shut ourselves down to avoid disappointment?

We’ve forgotten how to dream?

We’ve forgotten how to hope?

We’ve forgotten how to allow ourselves to be open to new things?

This ancient prophecy speaks to us today:

It speaks to our world today, offering hope in all its hopeless places.

This ancient prophecy speaks to the church today, offering comfort for broken and bruised lives.

This ancient prophecy speaks to us here in Mauchline today, offering us the possibility of a new way forward.

I am about to do a new thing, says the Lord.

What would it take for us to be open to that possibility?

To welcome it, even.

Can we allow ourselves the abandonment of Mary or the extravagance that we can give ourselves, in love, to a way we have not chosen, simply trusting in a God who always does a new thing?

Can we be prophets in this place, at this time, seeing the new way that God leads us and choosing to follow?

Even as Jesus changes direction and sets his face toward Jerusalem, may we have the courage to follow him, journeying to the cross – and beyond – because our God is doing a new thing in this place.

Thanks be to God.

Amen

Tuesday, 16 March 2010

Doing a new thing

Looking ahead to Sunday, I was all set to preach on the gospel story from John, of Mary anointing Jesus with the expensive ointment - simply because it is my most favourite story in the whole of Scripture. However I'm preaching in a congregation whose minister has just moved on to pastures new and the Old Testament reading, from Isaiah, speaks of God doing a new thing - so appropriate for these people in their current situation. Thanks be to God for the lectionary and choices.

Thursday, 11 March 2010

Lad's night

A reading for Thursday in Holy Week:

All is set.

Following his instructions,

we’ve rented a room,

arranged the purvey.

It’ll just be Jesus and us

a good lad’s night.

What a blast we had the last time we did as he told us

borrowing that donkey

parading into town

men women and children cheering us on.

It’s been a funny few days –

Crazy laughter on the Sunday

Temper tantrum on the Monday

Telling it how it is on the Tuesday

Beautiful woman

with exquisite ointment on the Wednesday

Don’t know what exactly he’s got planned for tonight

One thing we can say for sure

It will be different

With him it always is

We’re going to rest up

because this week’s gone like lightning.

Jesus has been like someone possessed

I’m sure that’s why he organised the room just for the lads

some down time before whatever campaign he’s got planned next

He needs to keep a low profile anyway

He’s upset a lot of folk this week

Bad enough parading into town like a king –

albeit a king on a donkey

but then to turn the tables in the temple – literally

and tell more of his hard hitting parables

and let himself be anointed semi-publicly

when he knows that the authorities

are watching and waiting

for the chance to do him down.

They have to bide their time

and choose their moment

so they don’t upset the people

though even they are turning.

The palm branch wavers

have already moved on

to the next big news story

And you know how crowds can be

when the mood turns ugly.

So we’re making the most of this lull,

gathering our strength

so that we can support him

through whatever happens.

Liz Crumlish Lent 2010

Wednesday, 10 March 2010

Priceless

A reading for the Wednesday of Holy Week:

Thank goodness.

We’ve at last had a quiet day.

No high jinks or funny tricks

Just some peace and quiet

Mind you, it wasn’t much fun

Jesus was pretty withdrawn

Not his usual gallous self.

To be honest I’d rather have his temper tantrums

than the brooding he’s done today

Thank goodness Mary came by tonight

with that precious ointment

Made quite a spectacle of herself

It was uncomfortable to watch

seemed so intimate

as though we were intruding on something private,

holy even.

You would have thought it was only her and Jesus

so engrossed in her task was she

anointing him

caressing his feet

Most of us had to turn away

it was so beautiful.

I think that’s why Judas threw in the curve ball

about the money wasted

He simply couldn’t stand the hush,

the sense of awe that had descended

had to loosen the tension.

I think the rest of us were just too overcome,

literally, with the aroma and the purity of the gift

that we witnessed being lavished on Jesus.

But he didn’t seem in the least embarrassed.

Recognised it for the gift it was

even though he went all strange

and started talking about being anointed for burial.

I felt a lump in my throat

as he stood up

for this poor often misaligned woman.

And her face.

The pride in her eyes when Jesus spoke up for her.

THAT was the priceless gift.

Liz Crumlish Lent 2010